Monday, June 30, 2008

A Brighter Day

So I have found in my whoa is me, that I can be really creative. I have kept myself busy by looking for a job, but have found time to stamp.



My mom called and asked if I wasn't to busy could I make her a card, tomorrow is a co-workers birthday. So I said sure. And here is what I came up with.





















Next my Uncle who recently got back from Afghanistan is going to be visiting my family over the 4th of July holiday. He, his wife and children will be here sometime on Friday. I cannot wait to see him, it has been since December since I have seen and am just thrilled that he made it home safely and is going to be spending the holiday with us. Here is a card I made for him. I was wanting to send it to him right when he got home, but didn't get it done in time and really didn't feel inspired. But with the holiday fast approaching, I finally felt it. I didn't have any yellow ribbon, so I improvised and took white and ran it across my SU! Yo-Yo Yellow, I think it gives it a kind of "worn" look.
























Thanks for stopping by and all of your prayers in this difficult time in my life.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

When it rains, it pours

Okay, so I have no card to post, because my life as I know it has been shook.

On Tuesday I went to work like a normal day, I did my usuallly job. About 4:30 my boss tells me he needs to talk to me about something before I leave for the day. Okay, now when someone hire up tells you they need to talk to you about something the worst usually goes through your mind, right?
So I finished what I was working on, got my computer shut down, was taking something into my bosses office knowing he was in there. He shut the door behind me, I knew that is was going to be bad. He asked if I was still at my part-time job, I told me not really, I just cover a shift here and there if needed. Then he drops the BOMB!

"Well I'm going to have to let you go! And my lawyer says I CAN'T tell you why" My face got hot, I felt the color drain from my face. my hands started to shake. HOW in the %#$@%$# could this be happening to ME!! He tells me he will write me a letter of recommendation because "You are a hard worker Mandey, and when I need something done I bring it to you because I know it will get done." So why in God's great name are you letting me go? Is what I wanted to ask, but when something like this is thrown at you at 5 o'clock, it is a little hard to form a sentance. He also tells me he will tell my former co-workers whatever I want him to as to why I am no longer there.
I don't care what you tell them I want to know why? Never really got a good answer, come to think of it I NEVER got an answer.

So now I am searching, in my semi-small town for a job, that will pay me what I was making and bring me the same joy I got from going to work. A co-worker of my once said "I GET to go to work, I don't HAVE to." And that is how I felt about that job, I got to go to work. Now, not only I am emotional from struggling to have a baby, I no longer have a job. My husband has been great, but I know deep down he wants me to get a job ASAP, and knowing this I am short with him. I don't why I am so crabby, oh wait I do, I lost my job. Okay, so this blog was meant for me to show off my creative talents, and here I am using it to vent my anger and frustrations. Sorry for those of you who stop by to see my creativeness and you get me complaining.
On the plus side I should be able to get a few cards made.
Thanks for stopping by.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

About time

Okay so I know I have been MIA from my blog, but believe me, it's not by choice. I have been stamping, but never allowed myself time to take pictures of them to post.


Life in general has been up and down, following a miscarriage in January, it has been down. But there are some up sides too. Right now just down. It seems when you want something so bad that is seems like everyone else has it. Ever where I go I see pregnant ladies so newly born babies. Part of me is happy for them and the other half just wants to punch them in the face. I know that they cannot help what I am feeling, but that is how it is, right?


I feel bad, I have several friends from high school who are expecting and want to get together, but right now with my feelings the way they are, I don't want to. Is that selfish of me? I even skipped out on a baby shower for one of them, just because seeing mommies to be, really stinks for me now. I have found that cards, getting ready for a garage sale, planting a garden, and just being with family and friends has really helped me in this time of need. I think about how if I could have carried that baby to term, I would be pretty big right now. My due date would have been September 17th. So you can just about picture what I would look like. Oh well, for some reason God knew Jon and I were not ready for a family just yet.





Okay on to a happier note. Here are some cards I made for Father's Day, my aunt's birthday and my parents 30th anniversary which is Tuesday the 17th. Thanks for stopping by and I am sorry for the bummer first part of this post.




























To all the father's out there "Happy Father's Day" make the best of it!!!